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Was lost but now I see

Well it Started with a lost soul that didn't know where he belonged, until the year of 2012 metal head never been to a trance festival so i chose the one and only Noisy Radicals(DArk PSy) Still my Favorite till this day anyways back to my story it all started there i went alone that festival knowing no one i walked in and everyone was so kind and i put my things down and these people camping next to me call me over and i go and they just chilling and smoking bongs and so i join them and they give me this amazing thing called a sunshine. Anywhoo i then start setting up and pour myself a drink and as i'm walking to the stage i start to see everything i zoom in on everything i look at, so my mind starts to play games with me i think of something and the answers start to come to me and i think to myself. "Holy shit this sunshine makes you 'use a big part of your brain that you wouldn't usually use." ...and the music, wow. I look at the decor and i'm like, "I've never felt this good in my entire life and everyone was sharing everything. I could see everyones energies flowing through each other. There was not one bad soul there and i could feel the universe vibrating through my body with the music it was dark but so psychedelic. I met the most amazing people and until this day i'm still friends with all them and never stopped partying since that day.

I became a big success in my life and i'm the happiest person that i can be i have the most ancient and awesome wise friends that have tought me so much. So the point of my story is, you can walk in with knowledge of something and walk out as a whole different person its about taking chances in life. Yes, take a risk jump of that cliff run through that forest go talk to that group of people who intimidate you. Don't be shy they could be your best friends in the future life is full of surprises. Bless it! P.L.U.R

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a literal life altering experience

The time, 1 pm December 31st 2013. This was the hardest year of my life, a year where I had become completely disenfranchised with the current rut of life's mundane routine. The boss had been gracious enough to let us go home early! Another solo mission to another party, bumping into the Science Frikshun faces to usher in yet another year. I had just finished collecting empty Pump water bottles from the back of my car, cleaning them and filling them with water. This was my M.O - Bring enough water for yourself and anyone else who needed them. With these bottles (roughly 10), I had packed my herbs, my pipe (later used with empty pump bottles to create make-shift bongs while at the festival), rolling tobacco, papers, and an extra box of smokes for when I was too lazy or too gaffed to roll. My body and my gear, is ready. I packed my weighty backpack into the car, found my trademark jacket, took my little black zippo and traveled to Hornbill Lodge (Revolution NYE) my final destination for 2013. As soon as I had arrived, and strapped my backpack to my back, I took all that was needed and headed to the gates. After meeting people I know through the party scene and having a lovely wrap, the hunt began for illicits. I had set aside a fair amount for a tiny bag of crystal molly meant to maintain the energy levels for the night. RAD, the afternoon is set. Sunset had come and while listening to some techno on the alternative floor I met a girl, we had seen each other a few times at parties but never actually met. I introduced myself and continued my solo mission. I went to a tent as the sun was setting and took out my tiny bag of goodness... low and behold - it's empty, like magic. After realizing that I had not sealed it properly and my pocket had essentially been turned into an admissible exhibit, I had 2 options. 1. Leave it and let all of it dissolve into the pocket and that is the end of that or... hear me out... 2. I could lick my hand, and consume as much as i could gather. Needless to say, option 2 was preferable considering the time of day and a whole party ahead of me. I had stopped after a few tastes, while pulling miscellaneous fluff off of my tongue. As the evening progressed, I was moving between the psytrance floor and the alternative floor, it was an unreal experience eventually, running around up and down, one stage with pulsating, heart pumping energetic music and then all of a sudden, the reassuring stillness of techno. Oh look there's that girl with the red hair again... We said hi, I got a tequila and went on my merry way. Midnight approached,I was on the psy floor at the time, Nick Grater was bringing the best of the psy bangers... The countdown had begun and we were slowly easing into 2014! 4...3...2...1...hold on a second... that riff sounds familiar.... it was https://soundcloud.com/azax/system-of-a-down-chop-suey ! Needless to say, like anyone that was there, we had all lost it in a moment of pure ecstasy. Oh look there's that girl with the red hair again.... We said hi and parted ways yet again. I had met a Freedom Seeker and we celebrated the ushering of the new year in style, with more tequila. The rest of the evening was a vague oscillation of dark psy and techno, I had not brought a tent and the Drum and Bass itch was kicking in as sunrise approached. Some time later, the sun rose. Myself, a physically and mentally broken individual. Oh look, it's the girl with the red hair again, carrying a cup of coffee in one hand and a hot chocolate in the other. She took one look at me and said "Here, you have this, you need it more than I do" while handing me her cup of coffee. After a while I noticed she was struggling to light her pipe of herbs. I simply said "I've got a bong". After this we had swapped numbers after a few traded smiles during DJ Bensons amazing sunrise liquid set I arrived at home, and spent about 2 hours staring at a blank TV screen gathering my mind to get a hot shower and a good warm meal. The following Friday I met the girl with the red hair yet again, it wasn't long until we had got involved. The events that followed were - us moving in together, getting 2 baby cats and on May 22nd... got engaged, set for a wedding later this year. Psytrance festivals are directly responsible for the wonderful day I have each day. 

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The Killer B story

Back in 2007 I played at my very first Red Eye event called " Cosmophonix" What a super awesome event that was. While on the dance floor having a good ol' jam session I noticed people dispersing off the dance floor, then out of nowhere a massive swarm of bees decided to join the psychedelic madness, it literally looked like a tornado of bees pulling into that area. The best part about it was that Killer B was playing at the time, the bees found a comfy home in the monitor speaker. The show had to go on and it did, bees all over the mixer and the monitor speak completely submerged in bees. They eventually got a bee keeper to come and take the speaker away, but some of the bees decided to hang around, nobody was hurt, happy days. An epic story that we will never forget. THE END Sonicdruid

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Earth Disaster

First party was Earth Dance, Last party was Earth Dance... Every party is Earth Dance! But this one Earth Dance has got to be a story my friends and i shall never forget! Ever tried taking no tent, no alcohol or drugs, and very little food to a 3 day party? Never do it! You need to sleep! You need to enjoy something that releases endorphins! You need to be able to function properly at a festival because there is so much happening, it be impossible to take it all in even if you had the necessities. Anyway, when i was 17 I head on up to Worcester with a couple mates to enjoy the wonderful festival we call Earth Dance 2011. I had taken nothing but a ticket, my little Toyota Tazz (I'll never see again), and the two friends who were keen to join me. By the way Earth dance usually happens on my birthday which is often my reason of going to this event. First night was good! Packed with laughter, music, dancing and playing! On the Saturday we decided to hike over the mountain and discover the massive lake that looks on and on as if it were an ocean. On the last night i became weak, exhausted, hungry and lonely, but with my determination i was eager to get home and hit the sack. However this could have been my one fatal mistake and thus never been able to write this story at all. I headed back to my car and with nobody to stop me i proceeded to leave the venue having known my two friends had their own lifts home. I started realizing i was too tired but was quite scared that i would be robbed and bad things (only having a learners license) would happen if i parked off on the side of the road so i kept pushing myself on despite having sleepy eye syndrome (it’s not a real thing - don't look it up). I didn't even have money to pay for the toll so i head around the mountain instead of through the tunnel. Famous for many deaths and astonishing cliffs, Du Toits Kloof hasn't seen many survivors to walk away from its wrath. Many reasons kept me to push on but eventually my eyes shut, everything dark and calm and my mind in a state of peace. Disturbed by a barge through bushes i had driven straight off the road and found some air to awaken me from my sleep. "YOUR LIFE REALLY DOES FLASH BEFORE YOUR EYES"! I remember it so clearly! First my mother’s face shone up in my mind and after, my brothers, followed by the pretty lights Paarl and the rest of Cape Town had to offer during the early hours of the morning. I then quickly grabbed the handbrake in mid-air and somehow remained content. When my little red car hit the ground, i had luckily landed on a big fynbos shrub to cushion the landing and prevent me from moving much further down the mountain. From there i found my way home through 3 different lifts; the first from a group of workers, second, a friendly poor man named Michael and last a taxi. It is not recommended to hitch hike in this country, but my angels really wanted me to live on from that day. When i got home i had never been so scared and happy at the same time to talk to my mother. I consider myself incredibly fortunate every day but not nearly as much as that day. If anything has taught me more in this life its Earth Dance. I still go back and enjoy the party but with a lot more care in my mind.

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A secret love affair with an alien

What if there was a place outside of time, a place where you fall in love with Nature, where there is no why, a place to be, a blessing about sharing and changes your heart. The sun was to rise, while staring unnervingly into the sink she could not understand the depth to the detail of the dirt that imprinted the outlines of her hands. Overwhelmingly uncertain, she sat among the trees to capture her breath, heartening the dawn of her isolation, before discerning her insecurity the fracture of Fractal Frequency filled the space between the air molecules. She sat on a bench with her heart overflowing, flooded with so much perception. In and out with thoughts, she preferred to just soar through, she found herself resting, summoning a purpose, and watching every cube, ever written. Tapping into the chaos, I remember all the politics that strapped my head in, while I plugged into the Matrix. At times I feel like I am dissipating and all is lifted up, laying my head in a traversing trance, this is the beginning of the first dimensional light. A switch to set her off, the temporal lobe nestled a deepened pain, it dug and moved her head slightly to the left and then moved the right, the double tap reminded her of the inversion, the Sacred Geometric, Sri Yantra, and engulfing the reality of eternal duality. "I noticed two incisions on my upper right forehead, and on the left closer to the eye. She looked forward with the sight of two and in the third, eagle-eyed into next generations." I met my Twin Soul. He handed me half an orange, a storm is settling, fires flame and through them, they would rather be grazing, live four stomachs full, but to feel one heartbeats pull, the spirit still recognizes me and my mirror would find me. Deep down the Vortex, lost connections were realigning. Why, doubted in this vessel of me, I should not doubt it at all, not enough silence, not enough solitude. He says hear the call, Let go of your fear, trust, trail me awake, deep and twisted, the bird path. I hear your song again, my divine wave, say bye-bye. Anew, it is the original script, at the crossing of infinity, it is in the picture, you and I am infinite. Blooming consciousness, I wish someone would understand me, mals-mad-slam, an upward slope, its all dope, let us find that mystery peace-pie, I would never let this Bee-Bee, die. Miss ya, B. Thank you, I'm sorry, forgive me, I love you Could a human express that eternal Love fractal to a stranger, could I express Love keeping in the secrets, the expression of love, stolen in a giggle or lost in a kiss, to be in your eyes and we are all one. Love spirals in all. This is not a love story; it is a Souls purpose, to reunite with its twin flame.

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Boom Delight

So in 2008 I had the privilege of attending Boom festival in Portugal. At the time I was 20 years old and it was my first and only time abroad. My good friend Adrian, who is 10 years older than me, bought me a ticket for my birthday. I was beyond ecstatic. Although I am perfectly fine today, I had a bit of a rough child hood. I started going to trance parties a bit earlier than most, so I have been to a few by the time we got on the plane departing to Lisbon. I did not really know what to expect, other than your normal trance party like we have in my Cape Town (normal in Cape Town still being world class). So after travelling by plane, train, taxi and foot for 3 days, we finally pitched our little 3 man tent. We unpacked, cracked a bottle of J&B and started partying with 8 friends that we met during our journey to the venue. We could not believe what we were seeing, yet we had no idea what was still in store for us. Thousands of “trippers” from all over the world, each speaking their own tongue, yet everyone speaking the same language. The music started a 6 pm, and our favorite DJ at the time, South African DJ "Artifact", had a sunrise set at 5 am the next morning. So Adrian (my friend) and I told each other, 'No matter what happens tonight, we HAVE to be on the dance floor tomorrow morning at 5 pm!' So the night started and by 3 am, we were in full swing. Already walking on the moon, we bumped into a magic man who told us that, 'This is the most magical of all magical fungi in the whole of Amsterdam!!' And we did NOT hesitate to indulge in to the magic he gave us. 30 mins later, we found ourselves at the tent, preparing for the legendary Artifact set in a couple of hours. With our drinks filled, dancing shoes tightened, we're on our way. As our journey started from our campsite, BOOOOM!!!! The magic swept us off our feet, literally. Right next to the bar at the reggae stage, Adrian fell to the floor, flat on his back. As I looked in shock, the whole world started spinning, to such a point where I fell right next to him. The grass around me swallowed me whole, where the tree above us took the form of a giant Buddha, blowing leaves into our faces. I was shouting out loud, while Adrian was giggling none stop. People were staring as we were laying right next to the bar freaking out to another level, another dimension! The leafy Buddha told me to snap out. So I looked to my left and Adrian looked like an Alien. I got up, went to the bar, ordered 2 bottles of water from Wallace (from the show "Wallace and Grommit"). I wasn't sure what time it was, but I knew it was close to 5 am. Adrian was man down, still caught up in the Buddha tree's grassy fingers. I knew I had to act, so I literally picked him up, through him over my shoulders, and carried him for 700 m to the main dance floor where 20 000 other aliens were gathering for what seemed to be a religious outer world dance of the universe. I am a 100 kg weightlifter by the way, while Adrian weighs no more than 60 kg. I put Adrian on his feet and told him 'we made it'. We made our way to front left, where we were greeted by 2 groups of South Africans who were also there to support our local hero. Just then, Artifact got on stage and the sun was about to rise. The biggest sound system in Europe started blasting the darkest, hardest psytrance that SA had to offer. This, to me, was the meaning of dance. The essence of it all. We lost it. Adrian and I were dancing outside our bodies in between Angels and Demons, Chinese and Aussies, Base and Treble. It was the highlight of my life!! It literally was the best moment of my life. The goose bumps did not stop from when I started writing this story until the end. Please take me back there...

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A story

In the life that I have lived I have experienced so much but very little to what is really around us, from growing up to writing this story, I will tell you about the things I’ve experienced to the things I’ve come to peace with. What do you know about aliens, or your consciousness? What if I told you these two things have a great connection between them but we have yet to connect with them as we aren't ready for it? Let’s talk about the alien part then get into the consciousness. What do aliens look like? Are they real? Are they here on earth with us? Aliens do exist but in a way that we shouldn't be frighten by them but more welcoming to them. Why would we do that? Wouldn’t they take over our planet or something drastic like that? No, not really. The reason why I say this is because, for a civilization to be considered an "Advanced Civilization" they/ it would have to have mastered the technology for space exploration and the ability to travel through space itself. As for the question; "Are they on earth with us?", I have no idea, and for the question, "What do aliens look like?", there is no real answer to this as from what I’ve seen and experienced, there was no way of me actually seeing without a dark outline around them. I've been told that we've been visited by two alien races, one coming from a grey like skin tone requesting agreements to keep peace, while the other is a darker blackish skin tone and known for the "evil" like in them. Now to get to the consciousness of this, our conscious has a greater connection to our surrounding than anything else. Our senses help us with this to create images in our minds mapping out an area without exploring it. How is that possible? An Out of body experience is, a sensation of being outside one's own body, typically of floating and being able to observe oneself from a distance. We humans can use our brains in much greater ways than ever expected but have yet to evolve to that point. We're at a starting point in this planets evolution but only in the beginning stage of stage 1 out of 4 (4 being/becoming an advanced civilization). Now, I'm not saying you can teleport using your mind or move an object with your mind, that's just not possible. We can use our minds to help us map out the terrain in front of us. Then the question, "What does consciousness and aliens have to do with anything? Those two things are completely irreverent" comes into play. No, they aren't, let me tell you why. To help yourself become more self-aware to your surroundings you have to do a few things before you can control your own brain. Self-awareness is like having a super power, you can control things you would have never thought of doing. With this it takes practice and time. At a certain point of self-awareness you can control your body to the point of you can walk 10 miles without feeling tired. Let’s take this to a scenario real quick. You're walking along this path that reach's 10 miles in distance, very flat walk not too much of a steep walk. You put yourself in auto pilot mode not even thinking or knowing you're walking. Focus on something else while you continue walking, focus on your surroundings. What do you feel, what do you hear, and most importantly what do you see. If you don't really feel anything then i want you to focus on what you can feel. Feel the matter around you, focus on the air to feel how dense it is compared to you. Now focus on what you hear, listen to everything around you. Focus on all noises then I want you to completely drown them out, making them have no noise. To do this you must clear the mind of everything finding self-peace and a new opening to yourself. What you see around you could be anything, appreciate what you're surroundings are. Taking in what’s around you can be beautiful and breathe taking. Once you've reached the end of the path you come to a realization that just by doing these small things you can explore more of what’s around you. The reason behind this is to help teach you expand your mind, something that an advanced civilization did to help them grow in technology. Self-healing and other "abilities" are part of this but I don't want to get into that as I don't know much about it. I was once told by these two darken figures in my view telling me to follow us and we'll bring enlightenment, seeing that thinking i was somewhere much further than earth, an existence where only the next step in minds can reach. While lost in this other area of no existence I hear two other people near me, telling me about their journeys. It gets to a point where the three of us acknowledge the fact that we knew of things on how to get here but what was here? I mean, where I am. I was told to follow and listen but who am I following and listening to? Getting to this point, the other two start to fade and tell me "there's more to this than what you are in, don't give up and trust us. We'll meet you there". At this point in my journey I start to fade out of it as well, seeing reality around me form back to what it was, watching a movie on a couch not knowing what just happen and freaked out it was like waking up from a dream. At this point you're thinking "did you just fall asleep and dream that?" No, prior to this I had taken 4 double dripped tabs of LSD, equivalent of 8 tabs in half. To this day I still see reminders of this crazy experience / story of mine. Very random but wanting to tell a story and helped you get into the mind set of it. (Do I think aliens are real? yes. No, I don’t think we're going to be invaded or anything drastic. Do I know if whom I saw and spoke too were aliens or not? No not at all, this entire thing could've just been a long journey trip for me. I’ll never know.

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changa Sandwiches

Changa Sandwiches


So its been awhile since the elf spice was found frequently in the scene at every party. At the time, it came out I was always trying to go as hardcore at these parties as I could - mainly because the crew that I used to roll with where some of the craziest mad hatters I’ve ever had the privilege to meet. They were known as the noisy radicals. Many where in this scene for years travelling the world freely and with the most powerful substances known in the psychedelic culture. Never having to work, just party non-stop they were some strong people with lungs of steel and an iron liver. Just partying with them would be hard as they would quickly have you running away from them with your tail between your legs muttering “those guys are fuckin' nuts! Hopefully I don’t bump into them again…” The amount I learnt from them is still hard to say. I could say that those were the first daze of me realizing that the psychedelic culture was one I was to style my life around and that I was to soon become what some may call, a psychedelic psychonaut. …“A psychonaut is a person who explores activities by which altered states of consciousness are induced and utilized for spiritual purposes or the exploration of the human mind”… It all started when I got daily phone calls, around 8am from one of the Noisy boys whom I had befriended. At the time I wasn’t working, and he had kept trying to get me to come over and chill. We chilled, drank craft beers, smoked cat poo chillums, ate biltong and sour dough bread with hummus. This went on for a about year and I ended up meeting a full spectrum of fellow psychonauts. People I didn’t realize existed till now. I was to learn about chemical extractions, synthesis, washes etc. all of which fascinated me as for the first time I said to myself “wait you can make these chemicals?!” I was shown underground sites on the web that had so much crazy information. I spent literally weeks online researching the mystical depths of the entheogen culture since the 50's up until now. People where actually able to crystallize their mescaline or DMT in ways they wanted - such as; leave it with a touch of pink for valentines day and create hearts for their girlfriends. Everything fascinated me beyond belief. At around this time I decided to give Changa a try. This is better known as DMT enhances leaf or DMT that has been soaked into a herb mixture made up of different inhibitors. The first try I felt nothing and thought maybe this isn’t all its hyped up to be. The 2nd time my friend gave me a vile with at least 2 hits in it. I remember thinking; “Im not messing around this time.” I stacked it all into a bowl and in minutes, I witnessed about 300 years of life and death on the mountain top and had never in my life experienced such a fast acting super hallucinogen. After my initial 1st experience it took me a year to get brave enough to do it again, finding it on the dance floor on a Sunday morning and really enjoying taking it slow with the stuff. This was to be the start of a serious journey with the spirit molecule. I had many beautiful trips yet had no idea why we could get to these places. There were a few times on my Changa journey where I lost respect for the ancient substance and got slapped by Shiva's 6 arms. It was in that moment that I realized the true power of the human mind. Most times one would come out sweating and shaking if it was too intense. I had been going through a rough phase in my life and was experiencing depression for the first time - thats when I started really losing the respect. Those days id have a trip every 2-3 days without fail. It was around this time I met someone who really helped me change my life. This person had as little fear for the stuff as me and wanted to see how far he could stretch his brain. We started journeying together and it was nice to know there was someone else who was there in case things got hectic. We did some serious journeying and even my heavy psychonaut friends picked up on the vibe and wanted to help. My one friend decided I was the best person to try some different inhibitors in the Changa and we quickly realized that by adding different MAOI’s that the trip would be effected too. So, he gave me a big jar of different herbs and said; “Try this sometime”, I asked; “Well what’s in it?” and his reply was that he wasnt too sure as he couldn't remember what the guy, who gave the jar to him, had said. I kept the jar and decided I'd use it when my Changa partner and I would try delve deep again. It didn’t take long for this to happen and one night we decided to turn on the UV light, make the room dark and have psychedelic mandalas playing off a projector while we have a deep session. After like the 3rd hit my friend mentions “don’t you have any pure crystal? I wanna try a Changa sandwich!” He explained that basically we would use Changa as a backstop then put a layer of pure DMT over it and then cover it with a thick bed of Changa again. I was like wow that’s pretty far out there but wasn’t gonna say no. This deep in the session I could do anything. I countered his offer by saying “well I’ve got these MAOI’s lets add some in and see what happens!” He wouldn’t say no either as we had an unspoken rule that if one person could handle something the other could too. So, we agreed and made the sandwich. I took some weird herb out my inhibitor jar, having no idea what it was and deciding to use that on top of the sandwiches. My friend took the 1st plunge and he was instantly 'gonners'. He just laid back and went into a DMT sleep. Now it was my turn. I took a deep toke and released and realized nothing was happening so I quickly repacked and took another hit... again, nothing. I decided on a 3rd hit as I could see my friend was dancing with the fractal elves and so, toke toke toke I went… I held it in for as long as I could, as I exhaled the room started to break apart into these pieces - as if a puzzle just stretched out for a bit and went back into place. Then the room started to disintegrate into a million little colourful pixels and I was getting sent information from areas of the brain I had never really known existed. I was in the matrix for about 45 mins before I came too. I opened my eyes to notice my friend not in the room anymore. With blending colours and fractals still coming off everything I slowly got up and went to go find him. He was outside, hunched up and obviously still tripping. He looked up at me and immediately said “Bru, its been over an hour now and I can still feel it!” I noticed I was also feeling like I had taken a hero dose of fungus and started worrying a bit. 45 mins was a long trip and for it to still be affecting my friend wasn’t normal. The thoughts that maybe we’d snapped our minds filled us with fear. After 2 hours I called my friend who originally gave me the MAOI jar and told him what had happened. He basically could give no help as he wasn't even sure as to what exactly was in the jar. My friend started freaking out as he just wanted to stop tripping and decided to jump in his car and go home. I watched him leave and thought to myself that he wasn’t making a good decision and unfortunately, I was too far gone to be able to argue with him. 2 hours 30 mins passed and still no change and I decided to observe what was happening to me as I decided I enjoyed the feeling of a prolonged trip. I sat up for 4 hours prior to smoking and still could feel the effects. “Absolutely fantastic” I thought to myself as I lay in my bed and pondered the swirling vortex sitting in between my ears.


I slept well and woke the next morning, still feeling stunned from last nights trip. It was truly and honestly, something else. My friend called me and told me he had got home just fine - but we both agreed that we'd come close to the void and that we'd give pushing the boundaries of the human consciousness...a break. The Changa sandwich is definitely a mixture I'd try in the future but now with on a level of the deepest respect for the substance and its psychedelic properties.


Our brain and our mind really is the most powerful organ we have and there is there is truly more to our minds then the deepest depths of time and space…


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Changa - Climbing the DMTree

I held in my breath, for long I would note

I swallowed the fear and blew out the smoke

What unfolded straight after was hardly a joke

Although, there was a touch of humour, like a tickle or poke

Giggling, I watched my whole world turn to mirrors and smoke


The warping of time

this feeling sublime

Spiraling through 

fractal mandalas of gold, turquoise and blue

Nameless colours too

alive, breathing and more complex in hue

I remember this. . . déjà vu?


Zoooooooooom!

A thunderous buzzing frequency climbs to its peak

followed by silence so empty

to the outside world I can no longer speak

Yet, from this silence came so much sound

A clear view that from empty nothing, everything abounds


like that, I am there

and into my heart and soul, I and they stare

A familiar place, although strange and missing a floor

I remember this, I have been here before


"My guides, my friends! I've come for a visit once more!

What is it that we have for me this time in store?"


They responded using not even a word:

"An adventure most adventurous and you know. . . Rather absurd

To start we must go within, to a subtler place

but it's not all fun and games, some demons you will face"


I replied without so much as stutter:

"That's no problem, you of all know me, I am an utter nutter

Boom! Bam! Pow! I be melting monsters like butter!"


Deeper we delved through subtler planes

1 plane, 2 planes, too many to name

Meeting beings dark and delightful

Some were familiar and some were quite frightful


Climbing the DMTree not up to the shoots

I was climbing it down, straight to my roots


Near the bottom came a wave of black and grim

unfriendly presence, storehouse of my sin

I wanted to run as this was very scary

a monster that wasn't even hairy


But I knew as ever that monsters you must face

If I ran now, I'd be stuck in the same place

And at the deepest level, even this void is a sacred space


So, I sang to the dark: "Come on you big crazy

We're harming us all, let’s go frolic in fields and find you a daisy!"


At this, I watched the void retreat

and a queen of light, took front seat

Stark naked in kaleidoscopic bliss

she leaned forward and gave my forehead a kiss


Softly she whispered: 

"You've done well young psychonaut but that was only a taste

There is much darkness you must still face

Do not be discouraged for you are not alone

You and your tribe have courage right down to the bone

A fiery, rebellious youth

With practice and patience, you are all bound to remember the truth

Do not rush but keep staying true

Give your friends smiles when they're feeling blue

Don't kid yourself, you know when they do

These feelings you have tuned into

You can sense how they feel, however, you do not know what they think

Do away with assumptions or your relationships may sink

Show them you love them and maybe write it in ink

No holds barred, you are beyond the brink

Remember what was warned by the void

Love bound by fear is communication destroyed"


So, I said to the light: "Many thanks, a lot I have learned

but I must wake up now, my friends are concerned

Right now, they are watching me 'die' on a rug

I want to wake up and give them a hug"


I returned to my body and opened my eyes

My friends asked me questions, thinking I'd be more wise

Only wise enough to know I'm a fool

but I did learn some things in that strange school

and I will hold sacred the guidance of this psychedelic tool


Many parts of this journey I did not reveal­­

but go see for yourself if none of this sounds real.

Just one inhale is all it would take

for you to set sail and catch a good wake!


To conclude this tale, I'd say it's not actually so strange

that plants are great allies for transformation and change

Done with pure intention to you they can show

that amidst thickest darkness there is always a glow

and it stays with you wherever you go


By Peter Rich

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Healing through Sound

Healing through Sound


My story is not one experience, but many, through my twenty year Psytrance journey which started at Rustler’s Valley in 1997. I have always been a loner and love road trips, so I have many fond memories of getting lost on dirt roads with little to no directions back then but your own internal compass. Happily shaped into the person I am today from the growth of times spent alone. Cycles come and go and One Festival on 11/11/11, Cosmogenesis on 12/12/12 and the passing of the Mayan Calendar on 21/12/12 were life changing festivals for me. I have since spent many years developing friendships found at those 3 festivals as I have come to realise as an introvert, that it is also through interaction that I have achieved beneficial changes in my personality structure, at both surface and deeper levels. In a direction that has produced greater integration, less internal conflict, leaving more energy utilizable for effective living.


The most healing I have personally experienced has been bathed in sound, dancing the night away into the twilight hours and then watching while the sun rises on a new day, a new me. In this way re-tuning my frequency signature to a higher level of health and wellbeing. This journey has led me on my path as a Vibrational Healer and as a Biofeedback Therapist, I have taken my SCIO Wellness Centre to various Psytrance Festivals through the years, teaching and sharing the healing power of sound and frequency. 


If we don't use our intelligence as it is designed to be used, we limit our minds, our brains and our health, and this limits the quality of our lives. We become, sooner or later, a part of "the many" (i.e., we lead fairly ordinary lives, go to school, get depressed, go to work, get bored, go senile and then die). Whatever one believes about what happens after this life, I’d like to have a bit more adventure than that during it. The way we now know human minds work makes it clear that we can't remain in good mental & physical health without such a space and such interactions as Psytrance Festivals provide, and I certainly can't achieve my optimal potential without them.


To communicate with genuineness, honesty and respect.

To adopt a position of unconditional positive regard toward whoever I communicate with.

To adopt an empathic understanding of the other person's frame of reference.

To endeavor to communicate this to everyone in a meaningful way.


Modem Festival offers a unique experience for me of not only self-healing on a dance floor like no other but by interacting in the form of lectures and workshops on Vibrational Healing and offering Therapy in their Healers Village with my SCIO and Rife machines. The experience would be the culmination of one cycle in my life and the beginning, I believe, of something completely marvelous. The next step in my personal progression.


"This process of the good life is not, I am convinced, a life for the faint-hearted. It involves the stretching and growing of becoming more and more of one's potentialities. It involves the courage to be. It means launching oneself fully into the stream of life". (Rogers, 1961)


How the Universe works


“To understand energy medicine it’s essential that you understand one very basic thing – energy. To do that, you have to be prepared to completely discard your present beliefs about reality and the nature of the universe.


Because things are not what they seem to be.


Right now, you probably believe that the world you live in is solid. And it certainly seems that way – if you bump into a coffee table, you’ll hurt your shin and hop around the room in pain. The coffee table is matter, and so are you. But what is matter? Matter is made up of molecules. And molecules are made up of elemental atoms and mostly empty space. 


Solid matter is an illusion. Matter is energy. 


Everything in the universe, from an elemental atom to a star, has its own unique frequency. Your entire existence… all matter, all life, all experiences – everything owes its existence in the physical world to frequency. Health has a frequency as has disease. Your organs are each tuned to a specific frequency as is your entire body which resonates at its own frequency. Absolutely everything is frequency. You cannot have an experience on this planet without attracting it through frequency. Every emotion, including love and hate tunes into a specific frequency.


You are a symphony of frequencies while you project yourself through this universe and create your physical reality. You are a master of your energy, and thus you are able to control everything you are, everything you do, everything you experience. From the day you are born until the day you die, nothing will ever change the fact that you are both a frequency emitter and receiver in flux with your internal and external environment.”


Part of my lecture on Vibrational Healing.

 

RIFE SOLFEGGIO FREQUENCIES

  

The Earthly or Archetypal Solfeggio Frequencies   

    

Frequencies in Hertz Effect   

    

174 hz Completion/Karma   

285 hz Remembering   

396 hz Freedom   

417 hz Change   

528 hz DNA Repair   

639 hz Connection   

741 hz Awakening   

852 hz Spiritual Order   

963 hz Communion/Togetherness   

    

The Divine or Heavenly Solfeggio Frequencies   

    

Frequencies in Hertz Effect   

    

186 hz Purpose/Karmic Soul Contracts   

297 hz Remembering Mastery   

318 hz Release from Belief Systems   

429 hz Change in Awareness   

531 hz DNA Healing   

642 hz Connection to Oneness   

753 hz Awakening to One's Divine   

864 hz Spiritual Embrace   

975 hz Communion/Oneness   

    

The Universal or Cosmic Solfeggio Frequencies   

    

Frequencies in Hertz Effect   

    

159 hz Initiation into the Fabric of the Universe   

261 hz Remembering the Secrets of Life   

372 hz Dimensional Openness   

483 hz Change in Consciousness   

594 hz DNA as a Window to Creation   

615 hz Connection to Creation   

726 hz Full Awareness of One's Divine   

837 hz Spiritual Enlightenment   

948 hz Cosmic/Universal Oneness   

   


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Path to purity

This happened at origin festival for me. my friends and I decided to drive through in the evening to get there early to maybe set up in the morning before the festival. we got to the gate and was to go back because they could not let us in. we then drove a bit down the road and slept in the back of the bakkie. we were awoken with a down poor and was later told we could enter. I was selling psychedelics not wanting to come to terms I was a dealer so I went about seeing friends and having a good time selling a bit and then I saw my brother  who said he was going to take acid that evening and if I was going to take anything I decided not to because I had to make money. time flew by and the evening came I then decided to take some acid and went about the usual journey until I went to go smoke a hash chillum. I started feeling more strange like a movie wit the perfect cast to tempt my emotions I was in a stall with leather workers who felt like they knew how to play with peoples minds I said sorry and left  i ran into my brother and started to talk to me but I could not hear him if he spoke with words it would come out all in pieces he then spoke to me through telepathy and using the people around us to talk to one another  we were in our own world yet in the same space as everyone I could see the dark in some and the light in others seeing a true psychedelic experience I was connected to the world if I would lift my arm it would have ripple effects on everyone and everything around me we were speaking in tongue and went on a journey to over come fears get rid of bad habits and bring out the purity in myself I left my brother to go sort out my own troubles and ask questions to the divine witch I started to get since that day I stopped smoking taking chemicals realizing that it hurts my body , stopped bringing false truth, I have started to live my life to help and bring truth to this world, I stopped selling finding out that I have a better purpose than that,  I found god and spirituality that festival changed my life for the better and I will always be grateful  this opportunity .

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A life changed through a Psychedelic Anomaly

My story of how psychedelics, Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder and returning to psychedelics saved my Life


My story is incredibly unique, reflective, personal and intense. Psychedelics hold enormous potential, and I do not hold a flicker of doubt that they will possess a pivotal role in the global revolutions to come.


Psychedelics have literally saved my life. I believe that the universe had an extremely loving yet firm plan for my life. The awaiting circumstances, experiences and challenges catapulted me into the vortex of a tumultuous and life altering journey. It was a clear pilgrimage of growth and self-discovery that was set before me. I experienced a surreal spiritual expedition that took me as far externally into the universe as it took me internally into my own inner being.


As much as the crucible of my personal journey resulted in inner peace, self-awareness, and spiritual growth; the polarizing experiences of duality, inner strife and Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder (“HPPD”) came at a cost. HPPD pushed me far beyond the boundaries of normality and ordinary human experience. I was forced a choice, to relinquish the control of my ego, or I would lose myself for the remainder of my life. I had to make a conscious choice, to develop the resilience to learn, grow, and move forward. I teetered all but weightlessly on the other end of the seesaw, with my mind on the brink of ruin and despair.


Psychedelics altered my life to such dramatic ends that the very foundation upon which my existence rested, was altered beyond recognition. This journey guided me through inconceivably diverse spectrum's of human experience. I feel blessed to have been granted the challenge of a lifetime, allowing me to refine myself into a new being of peace and understanding.


The Man Who Never Knew Himself


The deepest valley was the dark place that I knew and called home for most of my life. I was completely consumed by discord, inner turmoil, suffering and inner anguish. Life had well and truly beaten me down, both emotionally and spiritually. I found myself unable to understand and be at peace with anything. I found myself unable to meaningfully connect with, nor understand the universe, my family, my friends and above all, myself; the person that I never truly knew. I was so disconnected from myself that I become someone, or something, unrecognizable. We are what we think we are, this is a universal law. I was hiding from myself, too afraid to let go and embrace, for reasons that at the time I could not profess to understand.


When I arrived at university, I had never been more lost. As a result of both my inner discontent and inability to understand myself, I sought shallow pleasures instead of addressing the root causes of my pain and unease. I turned to the superficial joys of student life that temporarily numbed the discomfort of my soul. True to my gut feeling, I turned to addiction and self-abuse. I embodied hedonism, selfishness, bitterness and a complete facade of a persona. I did not care. Through all my toil and external searches I found no peace or happiness. I wanted to unleash my potential; to finally calm my mind and understand the human being that I truly was. I wanted so desperately to break the shackles of personal bondage, but I saw no way to do so.


Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder


Unable to find any of the answers, I eventually lost sight of anything other than darkness and suffering within this universe. It was at that point, that I was offered my first taste of psychedelics. From mushrooms, to LSD. Once each.

In the experiences, I was shown, I was told, I was taught, but I refused to listen. This was my foolish mistake. I did not use the lessons and other incredible revelations I was given. I carried on the same destructive habits as I had in the past. I refused to listen, grow, and follow the path upon which I was meant to walk.


Now that I make sense of it, it is my belief that because of my arrogance, stubbornness and refusal to stop my alcoholism and cast out my life’s destructive habits, that I ended up getting HPPD. HPPD is a rare disorder whereby your visual perception does not return back to normal after a psychedelic experience. This broke me completely. For three and a half years HPPD took me to hell and back. However, I wouldn’t change it for the world. I couldn’t make sense of it at the time, but I am able to now. Had I not experienced what can only be described as a life-altering divine intervention, I would probably have died as a consequence of my self-abuse.


In my foolishness, pain and lack of mental clarity I was blinded from the purpose of this seemingly immovable obstacle. I wasn’t handling life well as it was, and on top of all my spiritual discord, I somehow had to make sense of this medically neglected disorder. For years, I merely existed as a fragment of myself. For far too long I was a broken soul. I find it fascinating that as human beings, the last place we would ever think to look to heal ourselves, is within.

After being kicked out of university, (the only thing I cared about, or rather, what my ego cared about) I spiraled into 3 years of depression, near-death alcoholism, months of drug addiction, the use of nearly every so called “prescription medication”, therapy, multiple psychiatric visits, and shock therapy. I almost lost my mind…. Worse yet, I almost lost my soul. I still couldn’t get to the root. I could not reach my inner-self. I allowed circumstance and apathy to control the direction of my life. I ran with anger, bitterness, and the desire for self-destruction. In the hopes of trying to escape the reality of HPPD I ran in every direction, explored every avenue and hid in every corner of the earth and society. After all this time, I realized I was doing everything in my power to run and hide from my true self. I finally understood that yes, there are people in your life. Many are special, many will come and go, but at the end of the day… All you have, is you, and you have to face yourself.


If only I had understood the true meaning and value of this journey at the time... Alas, like with anything in this finite existence, we are not blessed with true self-awareness and clarity of thought when we are consumed by our own suffering



Reflection by turning back to psychedelics - LSD

 

The clearest and most honest mirror in this universe is LSD


Trembling, I finally turned to and readied myself. My mind was almost numb failing to comprehend the magnitude of what I was about to do. I am a brave and resilient man who was no stranger to adversity, but what stood before me terrified me. Within my heart and soul I knew the unmistakable truth, and exactly what it was that I had to do and what it meant. Acting upon some surreal internal instinct, I was fully aware that this was going to be the most terrifying and courageous thing I would ever have to do in my life. I would finally have to face myself.


No more masks. No more running. No more hiding. No more excuses hidden under the guise of skewed morality. I had subconsciously avoided my true self all my life. Too afraid to face up and accept myself as an indescribable being of the universe along with all of my flaws and imperfections.

There is no running from LSD, there is no hiding. It’s just you, yourself, and you. You WILL face yourself. Like it or not. You will be forced to process and see emotions, visions and memories that you would normally hide away from. That is the beauty of LSD. You can’t. LSD is a wonderful teacher. You are forced to process what you are supposed to process, you are forced to see what you are supposed to see, and you are shown what you are supposed to learn and what changes you need to make in your life. It is up to you to listen and act on this new knowledge. In my experience, this was the life changing moment. One that I am grateful for every single day. I was shown that HPPD is a core part of my life. In order to deal with it, I had to accept it, embrace it, transmute it, and change my perspective.


I was given everything that I needed to make the changes and adjustments that were so sorely needed to get me back on the right path. I was told: “Here are the keys, you have had them the entire time, and you just refused to accept that truth. Now use them! This is your second chance.”

After this life changing experience, I was finally able to see and think with clarity, to be in the moment and see things objectively without attachment or expectation. For the first time I saw and knew who I was.


Who Am I?


Do I know myself? Yes I do. Finally. There is no feeling in this universe quite like the overwhelming and divine experience of meeting your true self for the first time. I don’t know if I will ever fully know every aspect of myself in its entirety. I have accepted that it is a process, a slow and uncomfortable journey through which healing and learning will come with time. To know thyself and travel through this experience together as best friends, rather than worst enemies has brought me a new sense of peace, hope and joy. I am beginning to understand myself more with each day. I am comfortable with who I am. I am in alignment with my true self. I have learnt that it is time to listen to those that are much wiser than me, because it is in that calmness, that guidance is provided when it is needed.


A Man Reborn and the purpose of (HPPD)


Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder, psychedelics and psytrance has taken my life to levels of peace, understanding, purpose, compassion and happiness that I long felt that I would never experience. I honestly believe that HPPD was placed into my life as a required drastic measure. I needed this catalyst to finally enable me to get the message and/or messages. HPPD was the ultimate teacher. It was the completely unforeseen measure that enabled me to understand myself, others, as well as the collective consciousness. A powerful psychedelic experience wasn’t enough for me. I was too arrogant and stubborn. I needed my psychedelic eyes open until I finally listened, until I finally understood completely, and learnt all the lessons that needed to be learnt. I was thrust into a state of being whereby I was perceiving reality on a different level constantly. It was exactly what I needed. I needed interference so strong that it would force me to see the truth, to leave the path of self-destruction that I was hell bent on following, regardless of all intuition imploring me to do otherwise. Psychedelics and HPPD have made me a better person. A far better person, whereby I am living in complete alignment with my true self, and the person I was supposed to be. With HPPD, psychedelics, and psytrance, I have found my tribe, I have found myself, and I am most certainly on the right path.


The most important lesson: (amongst a prolific amount of universal wisdom and understanding gained in what I feel has been a journey of a lifetime), is to be still and know thyself. I have a newfound purpose to continue to grow personally, spiritually, and to help those in the psychedelic community that haven’t yet found peace or answers to HPPD. I am now involved in research and awareness of this rare condition in order to create an awareness of, research and understand this all too often misunderstood and misdiagnosed condition.


The path of purpose and awakening


After everything, I understand the purpose and the process of the odyssey that I needed to experience. I understand the suffering. I had to be broken. Broken piece by piece until all spiritual disease was cast out. The only way for that to happen was for something as vicious and all-consuming as HPPD to befall me. It allowed me to start afresh, listen to, trust, and understand who I am. It was an experience that broke me to such an extent that I felt like the equivalent of universal clay. Clay that the universe/higher self (whatever you want to call it) could remold and reshape me as I was intended to be. To be broken and rebuilt through psychedelics and HPPD, I finally began to understand who I am and what is truly important to me in life.


Through this process I am finally free to follow the path that I was meant to walk and discover, so that each day I am able to learn more and fuse these teachings into myself. I now wander through life as a beautiful, crazy, flawed being of light and love. This life, this, in terms of what I have been able to experience and learn, I would not swap it for an incarnation in any other time or place in the universe.


Human beings are remarkable creatures. It is an intrinsic part of our nature to be malleable. It is within our power to choose to change, adapt, and grow. The onus is on ourselves to create the reality we want to experience.

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Lemon grass, Strangers and Llaughs.

This story begins at the outdoor festival called Oppi Koppi in South Africa. Unfortunately Oppi is not a psytrance festival,but an outdoor festival nonetheless. The year is 2016 and a group of friends and i decide that it would be a good idea to take some LSD. My group included my boyfriend Andrew,whom has quite extensive experience with psychedelia and could not contain his excitement at the thought of having a trip. Our best friend Rowen, who although had also quite a bit of experience, but not so much with Acid. It was only my second time taking this mind altering substance and i was a little bit sceptical as the first time i did it ,was a bad experience. it is a good thing to bare in mind that whilst the concept of taking psychedelics is a fun thing to do, especially at a music festival, we mainly thought of it as a way to resolve any personal issues and to grow stronger as an individual as well as to bring us together in ways that cannot be done by simply drinking alcohol. At the risk of sounding like a complete druggie, there is so much more to a trip than just the visual aspects and saying 'i've done LSD"


it was about 3 o'clock in the afternoon when we decided to take. we each took about half a paper each. we wandered around the festival, giggling and dancing and essentially waiting for our trip to begin. This is usually a time of anxiety but for us it was as if the laughing was limitless and i wished we could stay there forever. around 5 o'clock, still nothing had happened and so we decided to take another half a tab. soon 6 o'clock came around and still nothing had happened so we decided to take another whole tab. The night had began to crawl in and the festivities were well under way. the smell of weed was around every corner and the sound of music and laughter resonated around us. it was truly a time of happiness.


At around 7:30, the three of us had grown tired from all the dancing and took seat under a spot lamp beneath a tree. Regaining our breath and taking sips of water we continued to laugh and talk. suddenly i realised that reality was slowly slipping away. i had began to see kaleidoscopes of colours and the stars above me appeared to be suspended above me as if they were on strings just swinging around in a wave like motion. As the night progressed so did our trip. it is very hard to explain it without sounding crazy but i will do my best. There was a tingling almost static sensation coursing through my body. The faint sound of what sounded like an aeroplane or a helicopter could be heard whenever i was not near the loud music. At some point we decided to go back to our camp site just to regroup. On our way there we came across an awesome soul named Michael. Because Oppi was not a psytrance festival, seeing Michael all psy'ed up with colourful scarfs and his happy chappy tune, it brought about a light and playful joyfulness to our trip. it was then that Michael gave us some lemongrass essential oils to put on our scarf. This is simply a way to ground yourself when taking psychedelics when it feels like things are getting a bit too much. We hugged Michael and bid him farewell and continued on our merry way. We arrived at our campsite and eventually the trip started to climax to such a point we no longer were fit to go back to the festival we just had some chill time by the camp fire.


The next day was the last day of the festival, and so we decided to go out hard and take another mind altering substance in the form of MDMA. The day was glorious, and was the best day out of all of the days we were there. we had been joined by a few other friends and the festival had truly come to life. it was as if all the bad people had left and only the beautiful souls remained. Towards the end of the night, we came across Michael Again, who gave us some more lemon grass oil to help calm our nerves. But alas the most unexpected thing happened. We started to feel disorientated and i sensed a feeling of losing my grip on reality again. This was strange because MDMA, although it is possible to have some psychedelic effect would never effect us like that unless we had taken actual psychedelics. Our brains had associated the smell of the lemon grass with the act of LSD so much so that the acid trip was reintroduced. We started tripping not as heavily but still very prominently as the night before. It wasn't long before the night ended and we made our way back to our tent where we slept peacefully.


This experience has to be the worst and the best experience i've ever had. Definitely one i will never forget.

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The Tree of Life

I had some mushies at a festival where I could see Table Mountain in the background (can't remember exactly where). I looked at the familiar old flat top and wondered, what if flat mountain is the remaining stump of what was once a giant tree. And instantly a creation myth with beautifully colourful nuances played in my head and projected itself onto the world through my eyes. It reminded me how powerful and necessary stories and legends truly are. This is the story of;


The Tree of Life


Many, many ages ago when the earth stood still there was only one continent. At the Southern edge of the land there was a giant tree.  The tree grew so massive that its roots spread deep down through the entire planet. It grew so tall into the heavens that its branches spread far above the clouds. When its seeds dropped and floated across the world on their soft angelic wings – they would sometimes land in the perfect place, where there was the right mixture of earth, water, sun and air to make them grow. However, these were no ordinary seeds, fore when they flowered, they produced animals. Some flowered underwater and made the fish, dolphins, turtles and other sea creatures and water lovers that live in rivers, dams and pools. Some flowered in jungles, forests, deserts and plains. They made the tigers, monkeys, elephants, bears and all the other creatures that roam the land. Others flowered smaller, between trees and smaller plants and made butterflies, bees, ants and all the insects. And then there were ones that flowered high on the mountain tops. They made the owls, eagles, bats, and all the winged creatures that took to the air. Among all the animals and plants, there lived a giant. His name was Skaye and his job was to look after the plants and animals and especially the big tree. He lived happily roaming the land taking caring o nature.

Because the earth stood still and never turned, one half off the planet was always facing the sun. This is the half where Skaye lived and he never once ventured to the dark half or even close to the edge, because nothing grew there. To be truthful, he was also a little scared of what might be in the dark. So, he would rather stay put in the sun. Whenever he got too hot, he would rest under the shade off the giant tree.

One day while he was taking a nap under the tree, he was awoken by a gathering of animals that came to see him.

“We are travelling to the Night Land, father Skaye. Thank you so much for taking care of us and loving us, but it is time for us to go now,” said Lion.

“Why would you want to go where nothing grows?” asked Skaye.

“My kind needs to eat meat and so I must learn to hunt the night where I cannot be seen. I must learn this before my children are born.”

“But what of the rest of you? There is no light!”

“There is a light called Luna. She is the moon of our Earth and reflects the lights of the sun. She makes waves in the water to play in.” said Dolphin, peaking out of the water.

“But it will be so cold! I will be worried about you my friends!”

“Don’t worry Father Skaye,” said the Bear. “We must learn of these things, because the world will change. I will change to white and live in the snow; they will call me Polar Bear. All things must change, that is Life- you taught us that.”

Skaye was in disbelief and quite upset.

“Owl, you are wise, surely you can see that this is a foolish journey?”

“Father. There is another like you. Another giant on the other side of the land. Her name is Irith. She does not have sun or warmth there, but she has music, songs of the Great Spirit that can connect us to the Great Spirit- the place we came from before we had different bodies. We need to learn these songs, because one day we will have to teach them to a new creature. This creature will be confused by his own mind. That is because his mind will be so big that he will do amazing things. However…”

“…he will forget that we are all brothers and sisters. He will think that his people are the only people and forget about the plant people, the tree people, the four leg people, the wing people, the fin people and all the rest of us living here. And so we must forever sing Irith’s songs in hopes of reminding them of who they really are. I have seen this is the visions of the future.”

Skaye was stunned by the decision of the animals to venture into the eternal night. He has never given it much thought. He knew it was there - the other half of the world, but he never had a reason to think about it until now. And another giant? He was so worried about the creatures- his children, and so he would journey to go see the dark for himself. After a nap under the tree, of course.

Skaye had never ventured this far North before. Now that he did, he was struck by an unknown feeling – fear. As he stood there on the edge of the darkness, he peered into something that confused him immensely – the unknown. In the Day land, the sun illuminated everything and there were no secrets. This place was both tantalizing and terrifying because of its mystery. It was all a bit too much for him. So he said a prayer for his friends and turned around to head back to the familiar comfort of the sun and his big tree.

But just as he took a step, he heard a voice singing – the most beautiful sound he ever heard. It could not be an animal, because it was a loud resonant voice like his. The he remembered what Owl has said; about the giant called Irith. What caught him most was that the voice was definitely a female voice. He turned around to try and see her, but there was only dark, purple nothingness.

“Who are you?” he bellowed. “I can’t see a thing!”

“In the night you must see with your ears and hear with your feet my friend.”

“Where are the animals?”

“They are safe here with me. I am teaching them the songs of the Great Spirit. The time has come for the light and dark to become one.”

“Will you step into the light so that I may see you?”

“Will you sing for me that I may hear you?”

“I have never sung before.”

“And I have never shown myself in the full light of the sun before. So we must both step into the unknown.”

“Let us meet on the line. Step into the twilight where our worlds meet.”

Skaye started singings a simple song about the tree and taking naps, but then his love for the animals burst forth and a beautiful full song bloomed from his voice. Irith joined in and they stepped into the twilight together. Then, something magical happened; both Irith and Skaye suddenly felt like they had found a treasure. A treasure they didn’t know they were looking for. Each was a key to the other, the boxes were their own heart. And as they clicked open, something came pouring out- many things in fact. Love, completeness, joy and something special that had, until now, only come in small does – change.

They stood there singing songs of joy for a long, long time. Even some of the animals on both sides heard the singing and came to listen. When they were done they told each other of all the wondrous things on either side. Skaye took Irith over to his side to show her the plants and his big tree, but after only a few steps, her skin began to burn in the sun and the heat drained all her energy. They then ventures to Irith’s side so she could show him the moonlight and the magic of the night. But after a few steps here, Skaye’s body was hurting from the cold and he could not move. And so they returned to the twilight.

“Let us meet here in the twilight after every nap we take.” said Skaye.

“It is too long to journey. For you to your tree and I to my cave where the spirit songs dwell. I am sorry Skaye, we cannot.”

And with that, she walked into the night. Skaye was heartbroken, but so was she. For the first time ever they both felt longing and sadness. But they had to work to do. Irith to teach the spirit songs and Skaye to take care of the plants, animals and the great tree. However, as time went by, Skaye noticed that the animals and plants had all grown up and were taking care of themselves. In fact, they started growing families and learning new things. Yes, change was here.

The biggest change of them all was the surprise Skaye got one day when he woke up from a nap and looked up at the tree only to realize that it was not throwing off anymore seeds. He lay there looking up at the gigantic branches, as the sun played through them. For a long time he looked and admired the tree and when he was absolutely sure that there were no more seeds floating down from the heavens, he made the decision that would change his life forever.

Skaye was a master of making tools but his tools were always for creation, not destruction. Nevertheless, he was sure of his heart and so he crafted an axe. Then he chopped, for what seemed to be ages. Until finally the tree came down with a thundering blow that shook the world. He cried and bellowed a scream of anguish into the open sky. The sun seemed to become hotter. From the tree he built a wagon, and the rest he chopped up into little pieces. Fire wood. He made the vast journey into the darkness and followed his heart until he could hear the singing. And happily they lived together with the fire always going, keeping Skaye warm enough to live with Irith in the cave. Together they learnt the songs of the spirit and taught it to the animals. For a very long time they lived like this and Skaye learnt how to see in the night. He even grew used to the cold, but still he could not survive without the fire. When the wood started to get low, they began to worry, especially Irith. But Skaye told her not to worry.

“Everything must change.” he said.


On the day the last little flame of the fire winked out, Skaye was shivering and frail. Irith panicked and did the only thing she could think of. To travel to where the sun shone would be too far now, but she knew that in the centre of the earth was the heat. So she took Skaye onto her back and swam down through the deep, dark ocean to where there is an opening to the centre of the earth. Here underground the roots of the great tree were dug in everywhere. But when Irith looked at Skaye, it was too late. The icy ocean was too much for him.

“You suffered the cold and dark for me. For love. For change. For life to continue. So I will burn in the light and heat for you. There is no death, only rebirth!”

And with that, she cast them both into the fiery, molten core of the earth. AS their bodies burned, their souls sparked out of the flames – untied. The tree roots absorbed the sparks and carried them all across the earth and even shot them up through the stump into the stars. And so they become Mother Earth and Father Sky. On this day the earth started to turn, and so opposites become one. And the two giants of old were finally, truly together – in balance. For days Father Sky blessed Mother Earth with a great rain, Tears of Joy. And the legend has it that from the cut off stump of the great tree there grew a small flower that produced one last creature – a human.

To this day we can see the great stump of the Tree of Life. It has over the ages turned to stone and is now known as Table Mountain, in South Africa – once upon a time, the edge of the land, when the continents were one. And the earth stood still. When giants roamed the earth.


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Fallipop & Finkle

The following is a fever dream I had at a trance festival. I was feeling quite orite when we left for the party, but by the second day I had a sudden flu and aching body. That night, instead of stomping on the dance floor, I lay in my tent being lulled into a feverish, frantic, full-on psychedelic lucid dream. When I awoke, I remembered it all clear as day and proceeded to write a story called;


Fallipop & Finkle


Petal 1


This is the world. The mysterious and strange square shaped world that we observe. The only world there is. The Saun brings the bright world into being for different inhabitants to live. Now, this time, there is Fallipop (or so we have just called him). Fallipop has four long limbs on his underside which he moves with. On his back end is a wavy limb for which we do not know the use. On his front is another limb we have learnt to call, a head – this he can open and close. He is walking to a new inhabitant that has appeared; with 6 round limbs arranged in a circular shape and attached to a long slender body. It does not move or make sounds, an inanimate thing - and so we have called it, the Finkle. Fallipop becomes aware of the Finkle and it changes his behavior. He now jumps up, prances (a word we use to describe his fast and erratic motions) and makes sounds that correspond with the opening and closing of his head. It is a good sound Fallipop makes; it makes something in me feel like the Saun - bright. Except that we have decided that; we cannot feel. These 'feelings' are merely illusion of our phantom limbs. No, we are merely three voices. We experience having these limbs and extra sensory feelings because we would like to have the attributes of the world's inhabitants, like Fallipop for example. I would like to, anyway - I do not know about the other two voices on either side of me. They deem it useless to ponder about such fancies, but somewhere in their phantom limbs they must feel as I do. How can something we experience not be real?

It is a good sound Fallipop makes. I would call this sound a whiney. However, I do not really like to participate in the philosophical conversations. Somehow I feel as if I would want to see more

of Fallipop and the Finkle then any other thing I have seen in the world. I cannot find the words to explain it, but somehow they seem to belong together. Fallipop now takes the Finkle with his opening part of his head which we have been taught before is a mouth. He prances even more and whinnies even louder. He looks extremely... happy. 'Feelings' and 'moods', is a new topic of debate for which we have just recently digested words. We integrate the words into our voices when we hear them from a figure called, Shata. I do not like him, but I feel good learning about the world. Happy is a good mood. The concept of 'good' and 'bad' is also a new topic of much uncertainty. Nevertheless, Fallipop and the Finkle make me feel happy - something even more than happy. Yet they also make me want something more - something that does not exist in the world. After a while of happy play with the Finkle, another large person appears. He makes a loud and bad sound, accompanied with fast and powerful jerks of his limbs. He has been in the world many times. This is Shata. Shata has five limbs. One of them is slightly thicker, but shorter, and sits to the side of his big middle part, while the rest sit on top – varying in size. He does not look pleased with Fallipop. Shata shouts in a raging voice. He takes the Finkle from Fallipop and rips off the limbs one by one. Fallipop becomes scared (that is a very bad feeling) and he makes himself smaller, drawing his limbs closer to each other. Fallipop walks to Shata in this small position, head hanging low. Another thing rises from below the line - the line that always remains dark at the bottom of the world. We have seen this thing many times before too, we call it a Grynder. A person goes into one end of the thing and comes out in smaller, long strips. And so it should happen to Fallipop as well. Why? Shata proceeds to take the strips made of Fallipop by the Grynder and sinks away beneath the line. It seems wrong that Fallipop should receive this fate for merely enjoying the presence of the Finkle. This makes me feel a bad feeling. Sadness, loneliness, hatred, I do not really know. A feeling like the darkness itself. The Saun goes off.

It always begins with a boom that makes us aware. Then the Saun comes on. Ten times the Saun goes on and off, stop. Dark, then a loud boom - it stops for a while. A boom again. Then ten times more - stop, dark, boom. Then it is the time for us to stop. When we stop, we ‘sleep’. Sleep is the best. Why can it not always be sleep? Sometimes in sleep I see another world besides the real one - a world for which I have no words, it is a good world. It is a world of...

more. However, it is just an illusion. I have not asked the other voices if they also have sleep illusions - it seems like a topic primed for ridicule. When we wake, it begins again. Boom, ten, stop, boom-boom, ten, stop, sleep. This cycle happens seven times and then different inhabitants come to the world. This is how we count time. The voice to the right of me suggested that we could also count smaller increments of time with clicks, using our tongues, or our fingers (the ten things at the end of our top limbs). Of course, the voice to the left will say that it is ridiculous to do so, because we do not really have tongues or fingers. "We only think of them," he would say. "All that is real is the world in front of us". If this is true... then I would rather sleep forever and live in the illusionary world of my dreams!

But it cannot be. These loops around these things of mine we have called, 'hands', must be real. Two hard, round loops attached to a string of smaller loops. The tiny pointy thing I have found with my fingers must also be real. With this I have been making stripes, one after the other onto one of the tiny loops. It now feels like one big line. It will soon make a part of the tiny loop to be gone. Then I will know if it is real. I suspect that I will be able to move my hands more once... "Will you stop with that noise you are always making! We must sleep now," says the voice to the left of me. "How do you even make that sound? I know you said it is from the stripes you make in the loops, but you must realize that this is a folly."

"I really do think that we should consider the possibility that we also really have limbs," says the voice to the right of me. "I think that we are perhaps also like Falipop. We have four limbs like Falipop has, and we also have an opening in our front that makes our noises. Thus..."

"Don't be ridiculous. Next I suppose you are going to say that Shata is like the phantom limbs at our ends just because he also has five appendages on him."

"Well I have not thought about him that way, but now that you mention it. Yes, Shata does seem to look like what our... what are they called? Hands, yes, what our hands would look like if I had to guess."

I resume making stripes on the loops. I have no interest in their contemplations. Even if we could figure out and know all the workings of the world, what would it matter if we cannot be in it as Fallipop is? The voice to the right of me seems like he would endorse my ideas, but he is easily swayed by the voice to the left's enduring beliefs. "You are clearly delusional," he says. "I stick to the original theory of these inhabitants; Shata is obviously the creator of Falipop, as he is the creator of all the people and things in the world. Shata has a perfect form while Falipop is malformed and has fallible behavior."

"And what pray-tell is the Finkle then?" The voice to the right enquires.

"The Finkle is a trial that Shata has set up for Falipop to test his purity and obedience."

"What? That is illogical. Surely if Shata created Falipop then he would already know if he is pure or not?"

"Will you stop your noise?" The voice to the left demands me.

To which I reply gingerly, “I do not think that Shata nor the Finkle nor Falipop are real."

The other voices shout like Shata. I suspect that they become fearful of my suggestions and pretend to be like Shata, so that they can mask their fear - the fear that Shata will throw them in the Grynder, even though we supposedly do not posses bodies. This to me is illogical. Why should we fear anything if we are merely observers?

Louder I said, "What are real are these loops around my hands. And the object in my hands that I have found with my, hind limbs - the feet, and have picked up with my fingers. With this object I have made stripes over and over again in one of the small loops, I can now feel the stripes becoming one big stripe. I believe I will be able to remove them from my hands very shortly. Once I am no longer attached to these loops I will know more than we ever have.

"Be warned. Look at what happened to Fallipop when he questioned Shata," says the voice to the left or perhaps even, the person to the left.

Then the one to the right, "I strongly advise you remain calm with us and make further deductions about the nature of our reality. It is the only w...”

The small loop with the stripes makes a final ‘clink’ and snaps into two half loops. There is absolute silence. For the first time ever I feel a part of my body in the middle of me, below my head and between my arms. It beats from inside, pulsating faster and faster. I was right - my hands can move more now. I pull my hands away from each other and the remaining string of small loops fall away from the big loops around my hands. Nervously and slowly I bring my hands to my sight. And there they are; two limbs that are in fact shaped like Shata. Hands. They are another colour which I have never seen. Many colours in fact, but it is hard to make out with only the dim pinprick of light shining from above. My hands also exist in more than two dimensions - there are three! I wanted to believe this is true, but now that I see it, I cannot help but be overwhelmed by a feeling of chaos. My head hurts and my vision is spinning. Everything is warped. I feel things coming from my eyes rolling down my face. My body is moving involuntarily - heaving. And I am making a loud sound like a pained whiney, but slower. I move my fingers around. My hands can move wherever I think them to! I start to feel my body - four limbs and a head with an opening. I use it to make an unfamiliar sound - laughter. It’s unfamiliar, because Shata’s laughter was bad. This laughter feels so good. Very much like the whiney. We are shaped like Fallipop! Relatively close. I can feel my entire body now, outside and in – in three dimensions. Yet I cannot see it. I raise my hands to my head and feel some kind of device holding my head in place and preventing me from seeing anything except the world in front of me. I use my hands and try to break it as I broke the loop, but I feel like I do not have enough strength for movement to achieve this. Another restraint. Why? I listen to the thumping sound in my middle and it gives me a rhythm to kindle the movement - like Fallipop's prance. Something stirs inside me, moves up to my hands and with a sharp movement I break the plates around my head. I can now look down. I see my body. It is all so confusing. Why is it not flat? I look to the left and right. There they are, two people restrained just like me, except they look slightly different than me. They are also bound by the loops and the head plate, and they have tubes coming out of the back of their body and head. I reach to the back of my own head and feel the tubes there, I break them of and a devastating sensation envelopes my entire

being, starting from where the tubes were attached swelling through me and crippling my ability to think. After some time I come to again. I still feel disorientated, but I am motivated to progress by the prospect of discovering more of this new world. I wonder if I can move like Fallipop does with his four limbs. I try. Again I feel like I do not have the strength for movement - or rather the thing that begins the movement. An abstract thing. Again I use the beating thing inside (I’ll call it my Uh-ohm) me to help me, as well as a sensation of something coming into the thing on the middle of my face (between my mouth and my eyes). I now realize that we have always been doing this action - the sensation goes deep into my body all around the thumping thing and it gives me that something to start the movement. I fumble. I am not nearly as good as Fallipop with moving. I do not know how to use these limbs. However it slowly comes to me and I crawl in the... space. Again, not flat with two dimensions like the world (or what we thought was the world, because now there is another world). In fact, what we used to know as the world is only a flat surface in one dimension of this new world - a rectangle shape in space made of six rectangle shapes. Four around, one below, and one above us. In the one above there are three circles, one right above each of us. This is where the dim light comes from after the Saun disappears. I turn around to look behind me and I see a strange device that is directly behind us. It has a long limb almost like that of the Finkle, that partially disappears beneath another three-dimensional rectangle shape. I crawl closer on all my limbs on the floor (the name for the bottom rectangle underneath us- or the 'phantom bottom' as the left person would call it). I struggle to move with the finesse of Fallipop, and tumble. In my stumbling action I accidentally hit the device with a part of my hand. The Saun switches on. I recoil in horror. The Saun is out here in this device! I look around seeing much more now in the brightness of the Saun. On the floor is a stack of light coloured rectangle shapes - thin and easy to pick up. On these rectangles are replicas of Fallipop, the Finkle, Shata and the Grynder device, portrayed in the exact sequence of events as they happened in the world – except, in static positions. These are easier to comprehend, seeing as they are also flat and familiar. Right at the top of the first rectangle are other straight and curved lines shaped unfamiliarly; "This Week's Picture Show Script ". I do not know what this is, but what is even stranger are the lifeless shapes of Fallipop, the Finkle and the Grynder device lying next to the stack. They are all

attached to long limbs like the Finkle. Fallipop has thin strands attached to him. I pick him up by the long limb and pull on these strands - this makes his limbs move like they would in the world. I look up at the device that is the source of the Saun, I lift the Fallipop up in front of it and suddenly Fallipop appears on the flat surface in front - 'the world'. I do the same with the Finkle. So these are the real people, the world is only a replica. But how do they move over here on their own, and where is the figure of Shata? A feeling of immense fear and confusion wells up in the place where the thing has been thumping inside of me. I do not exactly know why, but without really thinking about it I drop the Finkle and raise my free hand in front of the Saun device next to Fallipop.

"Ah, Shata! See, nothing has changed," says the person to the left.

"Hm, they are moving rather strangely," says the one to the right.

My body shakes, I get really upset and crush the Falipop figure with my hands. I crumple it up and throw it away. The other two gasp. A sound we have never made before.

The left claims that; "It is alright. Shata shall make a new Falipop. I am sure."

I have heard enough, seen enough, and have felt enough. "No. It is as I have seen in a dream of mine. They were not real. They are fabricated here with dead things and another thing that makes the world. Well it's not the world, it's only.. a... uh, I can't explain it. You have to experience it as I do."

"If this is true, what then makes the noise for the dead things?" The one to the right enquires.

"You cannot seriously be indulging his delusional fancies. He is just making these strange sounds trying to trick us."

"No, I am not. Let me take off your hand loops, and remove your restraints, then you can see as well." Without thinking about it, I get up onto just my bottom limbs - the legs and somehow effortlessly move closer to them. My replica is casted by the Saun onto 'the world' in a huge erratic mass. This evidently frightens the other two.

The left, "No! Absolutely not! What are you doing? You are upsetting the natural order of the world. Just keep quiet!"

The right, "I'm afraid he is right. You should rather stop with whatever it is you are doing."

I move to right in front of them, but their eyes are shut - out of fear. I feel a heavy disappointment and sadness for them. From where I am standing I see something I did not see before; another rectangle shape in the back wall behind the Saun device. There is a dim line shining right around it. It beckons me towards it. I walk towards it and feel it with my hands. There is a shape sticking out of it to the one side. I test it with my hand, it shifts and suddenly the entire rectangle shapes swings towards me. I get a fright and move out of the way. Where the shape use to be, there is now another... space. It is completely bright, as if there is no place in it that the Saun does not touch. Is there a different Saun in this place? I step into the space and it swallows all my rational thinking. The rectangle shape behind me shuts by itself and makes a loud sound. ‘Boom!’ That is the boom we always hear. I look to the right and to the left of me; the space stretches on both ways for as long as I can see. Filled with exact replicas of the same rectangle I just stepped through. Are there more like us?

"Hey. What? You! What the hell? How...?" A voice resounds from the left of me in the space. I turn and see that it belongs to a man. Not a man like me. He has a bigger body that is all one colour of black and where his face should be, is a shiny rectangle shape. He walks to a certain place along the wall and grabs something off of it. He now stalks towards me like Shata would charge at people and swings at me with the thing. I manage to miss his blow. I do not know how, my body is somehow instinctively moving - without me even thinking for it. The thing in his hand is a weapon with a long limb and a sharp rectangle end - an Akse. We have seen in it the world before. It is used to end people and things. He steps back and swings at me again - somehow I catch the limb of the Akse and I seize it from him. He is surprised and jumps onto me with the full force of his body. What ensues is an entangling of our limbs combined with grunts and sharps jerks by both of us with the intent to bring harm to the other and to free yourself - almost like with the restrictions in my room. Somewhere inside of me something begins to stir. Something burning like an endless amount of Sauns. Feelings; anger, confusion,

hatred, sadness, loneliness, and more I do not even understand, begin to well up in me as I am tumbling on the floor with this other person. As if everything I could have felt during the entire time I was in that room is being released at once. A being with force of its own, and all it wants to do is to obliterate everything. I realize that he has stopped and that my right hand balled into a tight round shape, is beating into the lifeless mound of this person. Underneath him a red stain is starting to grow in a round shape. I am the Grynder. I get up and prance, I prance as fast as I can through the space towards the side he came from. Hoping to find what? All there is, is this endless replication of rectangle shapes that most likely open up to rooms just like mine. The rectangles flash in the edges of my sight. This is a strange kind of view, I have always only been able to look straight in front of me. Everything warps again. Black. I recover from the floor and realize that I have pranced into a wall. The wall at the end of the long space. No, another rectangle open-way, but this one is different. Above it is another inscription shaped with lines; ‘Exit’. It does not have a shape to open it like the one for our room. Next to the exit on the wall, is a rectangle shape with a Shata figure in the middle of it - or is it a hand? Perhaps if I place my hand in the shape it will open this door. I tentatively hover my hand above the shape, it is larger than my hand. I get a feeling similar to the moment when I finally striped through my loops. There is still a big loop around each hand, but at least I am rid of the small ones that bound me to that room. To that one position. How long would I have stayed there if I did not find the sharp object - forever? My Uh-ohm starts to beat again, and my hands shakes as it slowly comes closer to the shape. This is a moment bigger than any other. What is behind this ‘exit’? More rooms? It cannot be. My hand touches. Immediately a loud and long sound pierces my hearing and seems to hang somewhere far above me. I cannot see who or what is making the sound. I push against the ‘exit ‘ rectangle, but it will not open.

The sound of an unknown voice also floats above me, "There has been a perimeter breach, all personnel to discontinue their break, and search the facility immediately. I repeat, there has been..."

Perhaps the hand of the strange man that I ended will work. He must have some kind of authority over me like Shata has over Fallipop. Again my body moves without me really thinking

about it. I prance all the way back to the man, I pick up the Akse and I sever his hand from his body. More of the red colour comes from his hand and arm where it is now split. I pick up his hand with mine and prance back to the door. I place his hand on the shape - this must work. Nothing. The door still will not open! I hear voices and the sound of many people's feet getting louder. I look at his hand again and realize that it is inside of a black skin. I slip it out - it looks just like mine underneath the black skin. So he is like me, but why was I inside the room and he outside if we are the same? I take his bare hand and place it against the shape. Somehow, I feel that if this does not work I will be ended. I push the door and finally it swings to the outside. My eyes are blinded, in this space there is a Saun that is so radiant it is touching my skin. If I was confused before, I am now utterly dumbfounded. If I thought I knew more, I now know I know nothing. I cannot comprehend anything, the world is warping to the extent that I feel I have completely lost control of myself. Again, I prance. Voices trailing behind me scream that I should stop. Loud bangs. Gigantic rectangle shapes that rise from the ground are blurred in my already warping vision. I think I see other people inside these shapes or in other strange things on the floor. It is all so confusing. Even stranger, is that for the first time in my life I am not trying to observe, or to understand and figure out what I see. All I want to do is to prance. Prance so fast and so far until... until what? I do not know. I do not know anything anymore. All I have ever known has been an illusion. I prance for what seems to be forever, until I am out of the grey rectangled place and enter a wildly unfamiliar green place where everything is curved and has motion. I view this for a short moment and then I feel weak again, like the first time I tried to move. My legs give way and my eyes fall shut. Black.


Petal 2


He cannot be from the city. The city people are too scared of the forests, but he did come from that direction – he was running faster than anyone I have ever seen. I wonder if something was chasing him. Whatever it was is long gone. He’s been sleeping for a full day now. He looks so peaceful, like one who knows how to dreamwalk. Quite a handsome man, if a little dog-eared. He looks like he belongs here, but he obviously has never been in the forest, because he is lying right next to a snake hole. What a silly man – I should probably wake him. What beautiful lips he has. Oh, he’s waking, better hide first – mother always said that you should feel for someone’s intentions before befriending them.

He’s waking up, and he looks frightened, he looks like he‘s trying really hard to arrange his thoughts. He shakes his head and looks at the forest as if a mist is clearing before his eyes. A deep relief smoothes his face and he sighs deeply - he must have big lungs. He crawls as if his legs are broken, or rather… as if he is not sure how to walk. He uses the nearest oak tree to prop himself up, but as soon as he feels the bark his eyes shoot open in amazement. He caresses the cracks with his fingers, tracing them up and down and suddenly he laughs a full bellied laugh. Is he insane? Everybody always says that the city people have lost their minds. Elder Shawhixe says that their bodies have control over their minds and spirits, like a man that is at the mercy of a wild horse running away with him. A wolf of the Mist Mountain starts to howl. The man looks at the sky in astonishment and howls in reply. More wolves join in. They rarely answer to a man’s howl Who is this man? He laughs more and howls back.

He jumps up and suddenly runs. Still limp like a newborn born antelope, but with so much enthusiasm - like a child overwhelmed by excitement for the New Spring Solstice dance. Now he is spinning round and round, and then he is surprised at being drunk? Has he never done that before? He looks at everything as if it is the first he has ever seen it. He flails wildly and then drops to the ground – he looks like he is having genuine fun. Oh, how I would like to join him. Of course my parents say I am too old for such frivolous things and that I should be looking towards marriage, but look at this man! He lives as if this is the first and last day he will feel the earth beneath his feet. Maybe I can speak to him now, but no, I must first see his heart. A worm

is crawling on his head. It is a green bristlehorn, quite poisonous, but obviously he does not know that, or does he? He picks it up with his fingers and studies it with such awe. He walks a little way and puts the bristlehorn down on a bush of tanglethorne. He picks one of the flowers and smells it and puts it in his hair, a very strange man – either completely stupid or very brave. Often the two are not very different, is what mother would say.

He is heading for the water. He must be very thirsty. This would be a good chance to test his temper. I will slip into the other side of the lake and sneak up on him like a crocodile.


Petal 3


Humans – the strangest of all the people of the earth. These two are already beginning a dance of courtship, although neither one would acknowledge it just yet. But take us bird people for example, when I courted my female, she was well aware of my every intention and I was of mine. It often seems as if these humans do not know what their own true intentions are. He drinks hastily as if the water will soon disappear. She is already hidden beneath the water, she can hold her breath for long – I see her swim every day. Her bubbles break surface, and he is alerted. He scurries back and falls, gripped by panic. Not one from these forests. She emerges from the water, and at first he is terrified possibly suspecting some creature, but then he sees the girl and he is besieged by her beauty. She is a beautiful one, as far as humans go, and she has a radiant spirit. They stare at one another for a long time, like wild cats waiting for the first twitch from the other. Then she speaks;

“Come swim, the water is wonderful.” She says “Water?” He asks and stirs the water gingerly with his feet, letting it trickle between his toes. “Rather just jump in all at once. It's better than being scared of the cold.” She laughs sweetly and splashes him with water. He gets a fright and scurries to stand. She just laughs some more and then swims away, luring him with a winking hand - a strange courtship indeed. Clearly overwhelmed by his instinct for companionship, he jumps in. The flower that was propped in his hair falls our and now floats nearby. They swim circles around each other, finally - a dance. “My name's Pachi. What's yours?” She says. “Name?” He asks, “What's my name? I don't even know what I am…” “You’re a human silly. I think I'll just call you that, Silly. Do you know what this is called?” She asks, picking up the tanglethorne flower he had in his hair. “It is quite a special flower.”

“F-finkle…” He stutters, looking dazed and confused. “No Silly, don't you know anything? It is a…” She was going to say Moniflaro, for that is the known name, but for some reason she hesitates, seeing something tender in his eyes and then continue; “It is a special Finkle. One drop of the juice can put someone asleep, but eating the whole flower will kill you. The same juice can burn through metal, but it can also heal a cut on your skin mixed with the right amount of water.” She carefully applies the juice from three squeezed leaves to the metal loops around his wrists, they melt and fall off, sinking into the water. He stares at the ripples out on the water as if it were witchcraft.

“I should know this kind of stuff, I’m apprenticing with the village healer.”

She then takes one leaf, opens it slightly with a pin she takes from her hair and dips it in the water. She daps it softly onto the cuts and gashes on his shoulders, arms and legs while she gyrates him curtly around in the water. She turns him upright again, and daps his face. When he stops coughing and regains his breath he looks at her and becomes entranced by her eyes, staring deeply into them he says with the utmost tentativeness in his voice; “Pachi?” “Yes?” “Is there someone here whose name is Shata?” “Shata? No.” She smiles broadly. “You're strange Silly. I like you.” “I… like you too.”

They look at each other intensely for a long time. Quite likely they have broken time and are now standing in a bubble outside of reality. And then, without warning, Pachi kisses Silly. He does not know what is happening, his eyes are open and his lips frozen. She pulls back and looks at him confused and apologetic. He takes a moment to regain senses and then grabs her and kisses her fervently. What happens next, is not describable with words, perhaps something only the spirits can see; an explosion of colour, sounds, fragrances and feelings that swirl into beautiful shapes and patterns that sing with the otherworldly vibration that is love. An intertwining of souls and the loss of self – like two rivers flowing into the ocean.


Petal 4


As so often happens in nature, two souls form a weave union. When this happens, a guardian spirit comes to look over the union. In this case that would be me. Ah, and such an enchanting union this is. However, this man is from the city. Strange. It very rarely happens that a person from the city has love for another, and certainly never a love that calls upon a guardian spirit. They usually just revel in lust and consumption, but this one is different somehow. These two seem to have just discovered the act of corporal entanglement. I doubt they will be doing much else in the days to come. After quite some time they lie blissfully still, exhausted and yet humming with a radiant energy. She strokes his hair and speaks: “You are a beautiful man.” “So are you.” Pachi just grins and laughs at him. Suddenly, there is a rustle in the forest nearby and the sound of a horse whinny scatters through the trees. Silly bolts up right and perks his ears. “Fallipop.” He exclaims with an eager voice. “A what?” “It's a Fallipop making that noise.” He darts away towards the horse. She runs after him, only to find him sobbing and staring at the horse as if it were a god. “That's just a hors... a Fallipop, yes. Have you never seen one before?” He shakes his head, still in disbelieving shock. “I can show you how to ride it...”

After much struggle to get him on the horse and to calm the horse, Pachi takes Silly for a ride through the forest. They pick up some speed and laugh together, wind dancing through their hair and clothes as the horse dashes through the forest. They go across the Erinim rivers, over

the Malken hills, through the Tanglethorne forest and before they know it they almost ride into the Deadlands. They are halted by a gate with an old rotted wooden sign that has a hand the colour of dried blood on it indicating to stop. Silly slides of the horse’s back and kneels down at the sign. He lifts his hand very hesitantly to touch the hand on the sign. He turns around unexpectedly and looks at Pachi thoughtfully.

“Pachi,” he says, “there is something I must show you.”


Petal 5


Silly knew right where to go, edging through the outskirts and back allies of the city. As if being anchored in one place for so long has embedded a magnetic north-point on his minds compass. My, but this is a terrible place – even though it is so full and big, it feels deserted. As if no spirits live here, and why would they? With every creeping step we took in the shadows of this place, it felt like a sharp rock scraping at the glass of my being – like crawling through tanglethorne. I have never been in the city before. I’ve only glimpse it from the outskirts, and for that I got a rigorous penance of chores. My brother had followed me and snatched me up the moment he found me, about to climb through a hole in the city fence. He brought me straight home and as customary to when someone breaks the tribal trust, we had an hour of silence and eye-gazing – after which followed the deciding of my penance.

Now I understand why. This place is evil. I can feel it permeating the air like an unseen smoke. And where there is smoke, there is fire – a fire of separation. There is no unity in this place. We have heard stories of course, and though I had never believed it could be so, I now know for certain. The few faces we saw out on street, spoke a thousand volumes. These people were owned by the things that they worked so hard to own. Did they not know that we are all children of Mother, and that we shall return our body to her when leave for the sky path again?

“Here.” Silly spoke and wrenched me out of my thoughts. For how long was I just lost in head? I did not see a thing, as if all my senses went blank. This place. It is as the elders say, there is a curse here that drives a person’s soul into a deep corner of the mind.

“So how many others like you are there?”

“Everyone in this place is like me, even them who are not bound by chains. The ones up in those high towers - they are not free either. Everybody who is not outside in.. in…”

“Nature.” I always feel bad, correcting him. It he has learnt many intellectual concepts, but not much about the world outside.

“Nature. They look but do not see, they hear but do not listen, or smell, or taste, or touch. Not really, only a little bit - in a fuzzy way. They do not wish to think or live for themselves. They are too… comfortable.”

“We cannot free the entire city.”

“No, but we can free those who were with me.” He takes the Finkle flower from his hair. “And then they must free as many as we have freed. And those must free as many again. And soon we will have freed the city.”

“How will we get it in to them?” This monstrous building of steel trimmed with spiky wire seemed like a forbidden vault of secrets. All of the city’s buildings did. What evil lay inside? What evil did he have to endure? Just then I see the sign…

Great spirit! Why? Should I tell him? Perhaps he knows already. Perhaps that is why he is so driven to free the others.

“There is a way, we just need to get inside the front door. And you need to tell me one thing; what is a, ‘week’?

Right through the front door? He looks downright determined though. My totem is a tigress and for the first time I will truly let her run free.

“I have a plan!”

Shata corp. ‘The hand that feeds’ Meat Factory no.5


Petal 6


We rode back to the tanglethorne forest. I dared not go back to the village, they would already be looking for me and if I told them of our plan they would not permit it at all. That is if they let Silly stay in the first place. Everything is so uncertain now – everything has changed like a wind bringing weather from another land. Standing in an opening underneath a thick canopy of twisting braches adorned with fanglike thorns and the most beautiful purple flowers, an ominous feeling crept up on me. Try to think of something else – Finkle. I quite like the name Silly had given the flower. It certainly soothed the nerves now. If the elders but knew what we were about to do…

“Do you remember what I told you of the Finkle?” I asked.

“Poison?” He asked awkwardly, his mouth twisting around the word.

“Yes. Collect as many as you can. We will use the poison to make darts, as my brothers showed me when I was little.”


Petal 7


We rode back to the city. I’ve had the nagging feeling that I should never have involved Patchi in this. I also have the feeling that whatever I say, she will not abandon this quest now. There are two guards at the rear entrance of the meat factory. She deftly uses the ‘dart blower’ to put them to sleep with the poison from the Finkle. Is this why it is forbidden by Shata? Ah, Shata is not even real. What is real? I really do not know anymore. All that matters is what I feel for Patchi - that which is called love. Nevertheless, I cannot live knowing that there are others like me who will never know the truth and will never get to experience this feeling. This feeling that is worth dying for. We sneak up to seemingly lifeless guards. We move their bodies behind a refuse bin and take their clothing. The clothing of the factory workers are luckily full-bodied and have masks as well – we should be able to remain hidden with ease. Inside, we walk past many workers unnoticed, until we come across one with a different colored uniform and a hand marking on his mask. He stops us with an upraised hand. Shata again.

“Unit 557. Room 34. Remember that one of your ‘products’ are shipping out today. So just double check it.”

I reply with a safe an simple; “Yes.” It seems to suffice.

“Excuse me, where is this week's ‘script’?” Pachi asks.

“Down in the print room.” He points down the hall and gestures with a curved finger to the first corridor to the let. “As always unit… 9-3-6. Oh yes you are new. They will be ready after lunch.”

”Thank you.” She says unwavering. She is brave indeed.

“Unit 557, be sure to show 936 the ropes. 936 be on alert at all times – just last week one of the products managed to escape. He killed one of our most vigilant employees. So be aware.”

“Yes. Thank you.”

We walk on, but I can almost feel the man’s eyes on our backs looking at us with suspicion. We round the corner to the left and enter the print room. The master copy of the script is lying next to a big electronic device. I discard it into a waste collector and together Patchi and I create a new script with a pen and paper we found in a drawer of a desk. I’m learning many new things from her. We then dart out of the room and head up a ladder further down the hall which leads up to the roof of the building. It is time. I only hope that they will know what to do.

“Drop one flower through each of the holes. They are air holes directly above the prisoners.” I tell Patchi.


Petal 8


There are only two products in this room now, because one has escaped. Therefore I personally took charge of this room, just so that the other two products would not get any ideas. I persistently told the board of the directors that teaching them language and entertaining them with shadow shows was a bad idea, but it is true that most of them die without stimulation – which of course is less profitable. It is probably more education then they would receive out there in the wild anyway. Some of them are from there, wildlings that stray to far from home and wander to the city out of curiosity – dumb savages. The rest are orphans picked up on the city street. ‘The weak are meat and the strong must eat.’

“What the hell?”

Flowers are falling from the holes in the roof, one after the other through each of the holes. When the first flower hits the floor the captive scrapes it towards him with his feet. The second one follows suite. Wait just a minute…

“I knew there was something funny about those two. No-one says ‘thank you’ around here.”


Petal 9


The guard walks hurriedly towards the print room. The end of lunch-time siren rings and workers line up at the print room. He is about to enter the room, but then he sees that the ladder hatchet is not properly closed and so instead he climbs the ladder. The workers walk into the print room one by one to take the new scripts and then return to their work rooms. On the rooftop the guard emerges and sees Silly and Pachi with their masks off, dropping the last flowers. Unfortunately I cannot do much here; this place is barren of nature. The only strength I have to reach into here is the flowers. He takes his gun and shoots; Pachi jumps to cover Silly and is shot. Pachi takes a concealed blow dart and shoots the guard between the eyes. He passes out. Silly scurries frantically for the bag with the remaining flowers, he turns it out and it is empty. He removes the flower from his hair and tries to squeeze juice from it into Pachi's wound. It is completely dry.

“No! You cannot go away! I love you!”

“We have done what we must, my silly man.”

“Then I am coming with you.”

“But we do not know where that is, or if we will even see each other. “

“As long as I can think and feel for myself, I will be free. And as long as I am free, I will look for you, even if it takes a thousand lifetimes. Even if you are a Finkle and I am a Falipop, then I will smell for your scent and we will be together...”

He proceeds to eat his flower and they lie down enveloped in each other.

“You really are too silly. But I love you too, and I believe you.”


Petal 10


This is the world. The mysterious and strange square shaped world that we observe. The only world there is, but strange things have happened. First one of the voices disappeared and now this object looking like a Finkle with more than just two dimensions has dropped in front of us. This time in the world, Fallipop appears first and gathers a Finkle. A circle appears. Fallipop approaches the circle and rubs it with the Finkle, the circle opens. Fallipop rejoices. Shata appears and is angry. He chases Fallipop and catches him. More Fallipops appear and they overpower the Shata, they proceed to rub him with the flowers. He dies and withers.

He was right.

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